How are you feeling right now?

I feel like I’ve been underestimating myself for so long now that I don’t know how to look at myself fairly anymore.

I’m looking at how I’ve been crippled by self-doubt over my writing for over a decade, and all because of things said by a handful of people that I now know were deliberately trying to sabotage my success.

I can see this clearly today because hindsight is truly 20/20 given enough time and distance.

Well, they had their small victory there. It worked for a time. Fortunately, I’m no longer blind to it.

I published a book, and overall, I’m doing well. Things have been better, but I’m taking steps toward bigger and brighter things every day.

It’s funny how I feel more like me today at 33 than I’ve ever felt before. I’m happy, all things considered.

So why say I’m underwhelmed?

My chronic illness and several different medication changes are really kicking my ass today. I’m feeling kind of numb and having a hard time getting motivated to do anything, even if it’s something I really want to do.

I am also feeling relatively positive, content, and relaxed.

Took some time off from social media, did some creative journaling, some planning and goal-setting, listened to music, and worked on formatting my next ebook for publishing. I’ve also done a lot of resting.

I hope your day has been gentle and kind.